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90% of people

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 01:04 EST

A: If i'm to be executed and 90% of people hand up and agree it's ok, then i would prefer to kill myself at once.

B: Why?

A: 1st, if they knew me, then ok i know i might really be a very bad person and i would choose to end my life myself. 2nd, if they didn't know me - oh well how cold blooded this world would be? Is there any meaning living here?

- written by wenshee

Happiness thing

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 06:17 EST

Driving fast on the one-direction highway

i asked God: Where's happiness?

God: Ah sorry I forgot to remind you... You just passed it by.

Me: I saw it...

God: So why didn't you stop?

Me: We are on highway, if I had to stop, all of us would not be happy.

-- written by wenshee

TOY, MY, TOY

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 04:14 EST

Don’t ask me “how are you”,

Because I don’t want to lie to you.

I don’t want to say I’m ok because I am not,

Neither to say I am down because

I don’t want you to worry about me.

I am a lonely kid,

Give me some time and I will recover,

Without gloves, I can still survive in winter.

I am a lonely kid,

God tell me who took away my toy,

Who took away my only and beautiful toy?

I am just a lonely kid,

And I miss my brother,

My brother gives me many toys.

I am just a lonely kid,

And I miss my missing toy,

He went away from me,

But I hope it was because someone robbed him away,

That he might someday come back to me.

I am a lonely kid,

I am just a lonely kid,

I am a just lonely kid,

I am just a just lonely kid,

I want my toy back,

I just want my toy back,

I want my just toy back,

I just want my just toy back…

Give my toy back, God,

I want him so much.

He had been a part of me,

He had been my heart,

My heart had been jumping for him.

But he doesn’t know,

However, I thought you knew.

Give you back to me, toy,

I miss you, my toy.

You had been a part of me,

You had been my heart,

My heart had been jumping for you.

But you didn’t know,

However, you still don’t know.

I am a lonely kid,

I am just a lonely kid,

I am a just lonely kid,

I am just a just lonely kid,

I want my toy back,

I just want my toy back,

I want my just toy back,

I just want my just toy back…

My toy doesn’t know,

He went away from me,

Left me alone thinking about his hair,

Beautiful eyes and smooth skin,

And evaporated smiles…

My brother will make a song for my toy,

The song will call my toy back.

How can a toy forget the memory about another toy,

Who had the happiest time with him?

But it’s true that he left,

And will not come back any more…

Daily

Thu, 31 May 2007 08:51 EST

People get bored and lonely always

Most of them just don't say...

True love is rare

I don't think i deserve it

So i give up

BROKEN

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 22:50 EST

Everything is broken
Nobody can run back to the
Very beginning
We have thrown away

Thought it unnecessary to keep
Never knew it is the only precious
Time we had clear as sky
Deep as ocean free as fish

How dare we step to now
With sadness and hatred
Cannot do things right
Everything is broken

When I turn back now
I can see nothing from here
Things gone are gone
Gone time never comes back

All blank behind me
And nothing's bright just in front
What could I do without you
But now I am alive

Thought you were my everything
And truth is you were
But no longer
And we shall never

Too hard to admit it's broken
But it has already vanished
Nothing can go back to the beginning
I guess we didn't even start

BUT I MISS

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 07:27 EST

I saw something
I read it as a history
I left it behind unfinished
I had no courage to look through
I passed it and never went back

Little in common
Dialogues
You love her
With hope colorful as rainbow
Jesus

You love her
In such a rush
Before she knew your true name
Forgive me
But I miss

You know it
After miss something
Then miss it
Bad circles
Tragedy as walking in the desert
Missing the seashore
Just to remember

But I miss
Cannot control
But Memory to dance
And sing and no one else
Can hear me

Desperate but I miss
The lake in your eyes
The crystal skies
And your breath
Before you took away hers

I see you from
Up there in clouds
I miss
I do not want but I miss
Long before it passed
By my tears

I knew so i missed it already
Long before my death
In my adolescence
In your eternal silence

But I still miss
You
So...

Ending Comes

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 04:59 EST

The ending comes, how could it come to me? A rewarded miracle after another sudden shock?

i am not recovered; i just get my dreams back. i belong to the sea of knowledge, not the kingdom of love and enjoyment.

anyway, i have gotten the peace in mind for me to study what i don't like too much. the past is fading away, and i believe there's someday i can do something different, and will be fully prepared for it while gained some other knowledge and skills. you are free to think whether i was trying to take advantage of you or other negative things, i don't care (but it's true that i loved you before though no longer). i just want to rely on my own ability, i can do it; i'll let you see.

it's a better way for me.

however i dunno it's like growing up or growing old...

i'd like to smile. :)

FINGER AND MEMORY

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 10:21 EST

the middle finger of my right hand was caught by the door this afternoon. hurt a lot. however it also reminded me of something else.

once the 4th finger of the same hand was caught by the window in the summer of 2006, you said you would kiss it when we would meet, but you forgot about it absolutely... and for such a long time i treated you as my left hand, the part of my body i cherish most. when you left me step by step, it was like cutting down the 5 fingers one by one...

hurt so much, and at last i lost all. the hollow and lost filled my heart at once and my life was changed since then.

Simple complicated

Wed, 28 Feb 2007 20:10 EST

Have been living through something
Have been facing the illusion of somebody
Have been staying in the castle of my loneliness
Have been escaping from human society

After all these events and after all the suffering time
Things are still not that simple as i hoped
How can i come over that change and start a new life
Like nothing has ever happened under the sun

I have locked myself in my lonely castle
After i kicked the last one i loved before out of it
Is there any good reason for me to trust guys again
To let them break my heart for one more time

under the tulips

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 21:31 EST

don't wake me up
i'm sleeping under the golden tulips
don't wake me up
i have nobody to care about

let me sleep
i have no lovers
i don't want sweet liars
also not fake fairy tales

let me sleep
i don't want to wait
let me sleep
i am sick of this unclear world

i can handle my life
keep your hands off my business
let me alone
let me live under the wet earth

if i make you disappointed
shut me out before i do it to you
i am someone who doesn't believe
i lose the faith in human love

don't say you love me
i won't believe any more
leave me alone
leave me alone under the tulips

let me sleep
allow me to forget my memory
forgive me to cut sunshine
with my thick and green leaves

don't wake me up
i'm sleeping under the golden rulips
don't wake me up
i have nobody to care about

Never Forget Steve Irwin...

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 20:41 EST

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being a biologist is always a dream from my childhood.

he died on the day when i entered my financial university...

anyway i feel guilty about that...

hope he can come back to earth soon...

about about... bad ending

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 07:51 EST

gosh sometimes i still think of that bad ending... i was, yes i was oversad or overshocked when i saw his email, though i really predicted it would happen soon. i loved him so so so much but when i was still studying in another province, i had felt strange... i canceled a deal with him which made me felt worse... so stupid lol... so so so stupid. when there's no one chats with me in midnight, i always listen to the songs stored in my laptop and when it comes to some... i just can not control myself not to think of all the things ever happened. i think i misunderstood something in his breakup email, but there's nothing i can do to change it, and there i left my gifts to him. i dunno if he will or has thrown them away, but i am still keeping that puppet. JUST CRYING WHEN TYPYING EVERY WORD ABOUT HIM... GOD! anyway he always ignored me...and i should not think of him any more...

Cold day

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 06:01 EST

In my cousin's.

A very very very big room... cold, freezing, freezing... and a conversation full of conflicts.

Lol, what did i do? i didn't go to porn websites at all, i didn't use up their credits on their ADSL accounts...

It is my cousin's ex who went there.

Oooooooops. Bad...

Cannot fall asleep at all...

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 16:17 EST

Oh gosh...

What have you been doing all night long, girl?

Never sleepy?
Never tired?
Never cold?
...

I don't believe.

What have you been doing all night long, girl?

Not in a bar or where else,
Not with friends,
What's the meaning of your staying up here alone?

Look, how time flies, you lost one night sleep...

Over excited?
Over awake?
Over mad?

You get cold all over,
Though the air conditioner is working well.
You need something to cheer up;
You just need warmth again to feel alive.

you know what? i was right.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 15:15 EST

we broke up.
you know what?
i was right.

though you kept silent,
i knew anything, long before when you wanted to tell;
just around the 2nd mon since we started.

lying is never a solution,
to Pisces,
they are too sensitive:
they never failed to seek,
you can never hide.

you lost the game,
though it is i who paid more.